8 weeks

A Yesterday was my first Mother's Day...this time last year I was putting the finishing touches on our wedding. Life is full of surprises and this was probably the best surprise of all. Being a mom is one of the greatest gifts I could have ever gotten. No other material gift could be better than the one I'm holding now. I've heard of love at first site...and I believe it. This baby girl has my heart. When she smiles at me I swear my heart gets a little bigger. 

In these short 8 weeks, I have changed so much. I get excited about poopy diapers. I cheer when Camille burps. I spend more time choosing her outfit than I do my own. I know what each cry means....hungry, tired, hurt tummy, or just mad. I love being home with her every day...I get to watch her change and grow. My absolute favorite thing is rocking her sleep at night....or any time during the day. I love when she looks up at me with those beautiful big eyes and snuggles up against my chest. It has become our nightly routine and I wouldn't change it at all. I will rock her until she is 20 if she wants me to. 

On Monday I have to go back to work. I'm dreading it. Even though its only for 4  1/2 days, it breaks my heart to not be here all day. I know the first day will be so rough....and I'm sure I'm going to cry. I'm blessed to have the entire summer to stay home with her but I will definitely miss her next week. 

 

As I celebrated yesterday, I thought of friends of mine that don't have children for various reasons. I pray that if motherhood is something you desire, that The Lord will give you the desires of your heart. And those if you with fur babies...you are a momma too. So Happy Mother's Day to you all. 

A little goofy time with my family

Workin' On My Fitness...

This morning I completed my first post-baby workout. I hear other women talk about how great it felt, how excited they were to get back at it. Well, let me be totally honest...it sucked. I had stopped working out before I got pregnant and it continued like that throughout my pregnancy. I could kick myself in the butt for doing that. I don't know if I have ever been this out of shape in my life. I'm ready for that to change. 

I don't like to exercise. I never have. I'm not a big fan of sweating. It feels gross. But I want to keep up with my daughter and any future children Will and I are blessed to have. And...I don't want to give up any food I love. Food is good. So because I want to get healthy again, keep up with my daughter and continue to eat the foods I love....I will run. I will sweat. I will get gross. 

I am not posting this as a way to brag. If you would have seen me on the treadmill you would understand there is nothing to brag about. Trust me. I'm posting this to keep myself accountable. Right now I'm keeping my exercising out of the public eye to avoid embarrassment for myself (and so others won't feel uncomfortable).  

I completed day 1 of week 1 of Couch to 5K. (http://www.c25k.com/) If you've never done this before you should. I did it years ago and it works. Weeks one and two are the worst in my opinion. I'm just telling myself that it does get easier and it will pay off. 

Now I get to enjoy the rest of my day with my beautiful girl....and maybe do a little housework. Maybe. 

8 Things I Want My Daughter To Know

As I was feeding Camille at 4 o'clock this morning, I started thinking about everything I want our daughter to know. I want her to understand each of these things now, but I know it will be a long time before she does. Here are the 8 things I want her to know....

Camille,

1. You will never know how much I love you until you have a child of your own. There is no way I can ever tell you the impact you have had on my life.
2. Find a man that loves you and treats you like your Daddy does. You deserve nothing less.
3. Love Jesus first. Always.
4. You are beautiful. No matter what anyone says to you...no matter how you feel about yourself...you are gorgeous.
5. Laugh. Laugh a lot. Laugh at yourself. If you are anything like your Momma, you will do some dumb stuff. Laugh about it.
6. Listen to your parents. We don't know everything...but we are smarter than you think. You will figure this out in about 25 years.
7. Accept my apologies. I am going to make mistakes. Lots of mistakes. When I do, expect an apology and accept it.
8. Cherish your family...some people aren't lucky to have awesome grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins...you do.